I don’t know what it is, but being at home drains the life out of me. I can’t seem to live my own life without something interrupting it. No I don’t mean people need help and I want to be selfish and just live my own life and let them be, but more along the lines that I am told how to live my life by those closest to me. I’ve had a rant post before this but I realize it’s those who are closest to me that that do this. It’s almost like I can never make anyone happy and in result I’m not happy. I really miss the sense of fellowship in college and without it I can see my walk with God not going so well. I wish my church had a sustainable college fellowship, it is one of the cons in being a commuter church. People from all boroughs makes it hard to fellowship. In two years everyone should be back and we’ll see how it goes from there. I was looking at twitter today and I ran by this verse:
Better to be patient than powerful; better to have self-control than to conquer a city.
What powerful words…This is something I definitely struggle with…How is it that I find it easy to get things done for church whether it’s worship stuff or fellowship stuff, yet I find it so hard to fight battles of self-control in my own life? Well, I ask you guys just pray for me as I continue on here at home being miserable, because it’s taking a lot more patience than I thought and a surely a lot more patience than I can bear.