I NEED SOME MOTIVATION.
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I NEED SOME MOTIVATION.
So I have a big list of things I need to do but couldn’t get done because I was just so dang busy. So the things I needed to do for the past week was.
Now here are the reasons why I couldn’t get most of that done:
This is what I plan on getting done today
So some dude named Kevin Ong came to speak at IV about Christian dating on Thursday. God has convicted me over the years to only look for Christians when dating. I have learned some serious lessons back in the day in attempt to date non-Christians. I pray and hope that my wife (when and if I get married) loves God more than I do so we can encourage each other to grow in Christ and not just have Him to the side in daily living and only worship him when I go to church or fellowship but really worship Him in my marriage in ALL that I do. When I slip she can encourage me and point me towards God. There is something REALLY attractive about a girl who is in love with God. Of course there are other standards I have, but at first place is that I want my wife to be truly in love with God. This has been in my heart for a long time and just as Kevin Ong has said and challenged us to do; I’ll be praying for my wife.
Wow, it feels like it has been an eternity since the last time I was here. Upon stepping out of the LIRR as it pulled into Stony Brook station, I felt this bittersweet feeling inside of me. Bitter because I know full well that I’m not a full-time student here at Stony, sweet because I get to spend the next 3 days here with my family. I met up with a bunch of brothers from IV to eat dinner at Denny’s and it was a great time of catching up. Something I miss so dearly about college is eating late at night. There is something very liberating about eating late at night: no parents to tell you what to do, just having a good time. This feeling makes me want to stay here but I know in a day I’ll be back home, boring home… (sigh)
Since I have the semester off, I can sleep as much as I want. Upon realizing this, I started to work out again. Why? Well the reason why I never really liked working out was because I was always so sore that getting out of bed was the worst thing ever…Now I can stay in bed as long as I want, that is no longer a problem :D. Upon this, I also realized that I will stretch a lot more. One of the reasons I’m working out is to improve in table tennis. That is my goal, maybe looks will be on the side but I want to improve in table tennis. If that means exercise, than so be it! This semester off really will test me spiritually. I eat a lot of crap and by God’s grace I don’t get fat! But that’s not the point, I am aiming to be a man of God and that means discipline. My body is the temple of God and slowly but surly in baby steps I’m going to work on some aspects as I aim to be a “Man of God”.
#1, taking care of my body… If I’m going to eat like crap I need to exercise to make up for it! I play a lot of table tennis and I actually think that is enough exercise for me but with more time off during those days where I don’t want to go out because I’m too lazy, well that means lifting weights and or running!
Another thing I’m aiming for (#2) is to study hard, but I really can’t since I’m not in school. Since nursing school is more practical than regular school, I hope to study my butt off, but not up to the point where I lose sight of everything else.
#3 will be reading the bible. We all try to put it in our new years resolutions but we always fail a few weeks or a month into the year, well…I’m saying it and I hope you guys can keep me accountable! School knowledge may make me intelligent but only God’s word can make me wise. I want to say that those who don’t look to God’s word break my heart, but that would be REALLY HYPOCRITICAL for me to say because I’m the same. I have phases where I read, and phases where I don’t. Life just gets in the way and I need to set my priorities STRAIGHT. So, the best I can do is worry about the plank in my eye before I take out the piece of wood in others. I truly believe that
#4 Is to be a good worship leader. I believe #3 and #4 are entwined together. I find that all excellent worship leaders indulge in God’s word daily. Worship at my church feels routine, people really need to examine their hearts and meditate. Music worship shouldn’t just be a time on the schedule for Sunday. I was there on the congregation side before and I know how it feels. After college fellowship, attending Urbana, attending so many different retreats and conferences, I learned SO much and have had the privilege of experiencing and being part of the worship teams. I can’t just take what I’ve learned and let it go to waste. With that, I have to understand that I am but a tool that God is going to use, ultimately it is up to the hearts of the congregation. Will they continue to worship as is or will they really take the time just forget everything else and focus on God? Will they be convicted. I have high hopes for our church.
With that said I’m going to shower now. Until next time…BYE!
So I just remembered that I had a tumblr so since I’m taking a semester off I should be blogging a lot more. I’m also writing this post from my phone (I know! It’s so incredible). I’m planning to abuse my phone for all its uses. Well with that said I guess this is somewhat of a post-retreat…post? This retreat has been a great one, I learned a lot about what it meant to be a worship leader and I felt something I have never felt when I led worship before; I let the spirit lead. God really hit me hard and it is no secret that people have been leaving NYCBC left and right. Up to the point now that a select few have decided to step up and try to revive the church. There were times where I really felt hopeless for our church, but that was because it was too overwhelming… there are so many parts that need work and its so hard to work on evrrything. So I asked myself… where is my passion? God really pointed me towards worship. Over the past year and a couple months I have learned guitar and I’ve had the privilege of learning from awesome worship leaders in college. I’ve realized that a lot of people go to college and realize that college church is sooooo awesome and fellowship there is so much more intimate than their home church or what not. They then decide that their home church is “not for them” so they leave. Me? Well… all of that is true, college church is freaking amazing and I’m really close with my friends at Intervarsity Christian fellowship. Outreach is our main goal and to be totally honest, the fellowship at Stony is blooming! But it doesn’t turn me off from NYCBC, as a matter of fact it gave me more of a passion to revive NYCBC. I’ve learned so much from college and I’m willing to use it to better my home church. The very church that has invested so much time for me in the past 20 years of my life. God is not done with me at NYCBC, and has pointed me to a direction for change in the worship there. Where feeling comfortable is not enough. People should feel overwhelming feelings of brokeness, joy, vulnerability when they worship, not comfort. I have a lot to learn and I hope anyone of my friends who read this pray that I will not let this semester that I’m taking off go to waste.